Senior year sucks. It isn't how I've imagined it to be. What ever happened to livin' up senior year? Nobody ever hits anyone up anymore. My group has been separated, knowing that some individuals are always with their significant other now. Where's the good vibes? That's something I miss from junior year.

Why must you appear in my dreams again all of a sudden? As strange as I think it may be, I enjoy it. It makes me really regret not getting to know you better though. You were just a summer friend that I was interested in, two summers ago. You'll never read this post, nor know it's about you.

I googled my thoughts and came upon a few answers, one of which,

"Also, completely outside of the romantic aspect of seeing someone in your dreams, I think that people will show up in your dreams when you believe from the bottom of your heart (whether or not you really want to accept it) that this person is meant to be in your life in some way shape or form. Sometimes you just know when someone is going to be important to you, and even if you may not talk much or go without talking for years, that part of you that remembers will show them to you when you're asleep."

Hm. Will we come across each other again?

If someone really loves you, shouldn't he/she respect your decisions? Whether if it reflects upon my own life, or his/hers also? I don't understand this. I think I should have complete control over my own life, making my own choices regardless of what you may think of it. I'm smart enough to know the consequences I may have to suffer from my actions, and how to prevent the worst from happening also. Sigh.

Are you fucking kidding me right now?
I hate it when someone brings down my mood just because they're acting all shitty. And I especially hate it when that someone doesn't tell me what's wrong. Maybe if I knew what's wrong I'd know how to make you feel better.

Ugh, the things I have to deal with..

Happy Birthday Earl.

Being a senior without a license and car sucks. During my previous years of high school, I've always had this image of me driving to school everyday stuck in my head. Now, I'm always rideless everywhere.
Fuck life.

I immensely despise how my boyfriend puts out all his frustration and anger on me. How can you possibly seem so peppy, yet so troubled? He seems content in his facebook conversations with his own friends. Sure this only happens for a condensed period of time, but I can't stand it anymore. I suppose this is better than having him punch his wall or some other impetuous action though. I wish boys would vent it out on a blog and not include others in their own matters.

/endrant

Senior year begins tomorrow. What a bittersweet sensation. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel. Happy that it is finally my last year of high school? Sad that I won't be able to wake up at noon to the blazing, scorching sun anymore? Whatever it may be, I'm ready for the year I've been waiting for.
Time to live it up. Seniors 2012!

When you're single you want to be in a relationship, but when you're in a relationship you want to be single.

Frankly, I'm not sure what I want. I like the thought of someone always being there for me, both physically and mentally. But being single has its ups. I like being free to talk to anybody, without feeling guilty or making somebody else jealous. Flirting around is actually quite entertaining too. I really don't understand what made me start thinking this way. Lesighs.